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I was sixteen and at home with my mate Doug when we decided to run away. It was 1970, and one afternoon feeling bored and excluded from the active world, and having seen the movie Woodstock - and knowing about the events of 1968 - we wanted to be with our generation at the second Isle of Wight Festival. Jimi Hendrix was going to play. It would be an education more important than education.
I collected all the money I had made from my paper-round and we went to London on the train, and then took another train to the Isle of Wight, and a ferry across to the island. We were wearing jeans and T-shirts. It hadn’t occurred to us to take any other clothes.
The festival was mayhem. There were no tickets, people just showed up. The scene was so huge – almost a million people – and with very little infrastructure; we could barely see any of the bands or hear the music, and it soon started to get cold. As night closed, we lay down on the open ground and began to realise how foolish this expedition was.
It was an important moment; the cultural paradigm had shifted from the written word - literature and drama - to music, and everything that went with it; fashion, sexuality, drugs, photography and so on. Â At the same time, artists like Van Morrison, Joni Mitchell and particularly Bob Dylan were transforming music with their use of language in lyric writing.
I was privileged to be young as this revolution took place, but I wanted to be a writer and couldn’t help wondering where someone like me might fit into all this. Â
It wasn’t until much later, in 1988, that Peter Florence established the Hay festival in a small, bookish town in Wales, and everything in literature changed. I was aware that poets like Allen Ginsberg did public readings, or literary gigs. Charles Dickens read to huge audiences, here and in the United States. Nevertheless, it is difficult to imagine some of the twentieth century’s greatest authors, Kafka, Woolf or Beckett, appearing in public, signing books, and making television appearances.
The literary festival, as it is today, was a new form in the early nineties, and in keeping with developments in publishing, which occurred during the Thatcherite period. This was the popification of literature, when writers became celebrities.
My first novel The Buddha of Suburbia was published in 1990, and my British, American and foreign publishers wanted me to give readings and talks to festivals around the world. I had to learn to sell myself as writer to the public through the contemporary media.
Talking in public didn’t come naturally to me; at first I was terrified, I thought I shouldn’t be doing this, I didn’t know how to describe my writing process, which is, after all, intuitive. But I began to understand that once I’d worked out a story of my method, which was probably more amusing than accurate, I could engage audiences, many of whom were tyro writers looking for direction. This foreshadowed the formation of the creative writing industry, which is now worth millions. Â
So when The Buddha of Suburbia was published I started to go to festivals, standing up and reading the first chapter of the book, and then answering questions. Although the terror never went away, I came to enjoy it, since the audience were receptive and I was aware that there would be young writers of colour who might be inspired by my example.
During this period, literary festivals sprang up all over the world, in middle-sized towns, as well as the big ones; Hay, Edinburgh, Adelaide, Jaipur, New York, and so on. This was great for the business of literature, writers commanding large audiences, signing books in tents with huge queues.
Small publishers were swallowed by big corporations, and were able to pay large advances for books. Writers were interviewed, appeared on television, and became national figures. The world of literature began to resemble other parts of celebrity culture. Â
Festivals remove you from your isolation and enable you to explore. Carlo and I spent two days in drab Belgrade with Irvine Welsh, including a bizarre visit to the Tito memorial. On another occasion, I was with Sachin visiting my family in Pakistan for the Karachi literary festival, which was patrolled by the army bearing Kalashnikovs.  In Brazil I made good friends with a private investigator from San Francisco, a man who specialised in extracting rich families’ children from cults.
In Mantua, one of the most pleasant festivals, Salman Rushdie was detained in the police station, apparently for his own safety, and we had some difficulty in springing him. In Ferrara, doing a gig with Zadie Smith, and agreeing to have a drink with her later, I was dismayed to see she had a book-signing queue four times the length of mine. I had sit behind a desk twiddling my pen, waiting for her to finish signing.
Festivals, where literature is the currency, are a treat for writers. You are interviewed and get recognition. You have sex. You get drunk and see places you would never otherwise visit, at someone else’s expense. Journalists take you seriously. Staying in good hotels, you meet other writers over breakfast, and enjoy conversations you wouldn’t have otherwise. At last, you think, books matter, they are central again, like music. And most importantly, you meet readers, something you never do in the normal course of events.
Having finished writing Shattered, a memoir of my year in hospital, I am keen to reengage with the business of literature; discussing my work with audiences, meeting booklovers, and becoming a writer again, rather than just an injured body. Writing is a lonely hallucination; at festivals, you meet others who share in the dream.
I think you will get back to festivals soon Hanif and will realise how happy people are for you that you survived and are starting to thrive again . Will be v emotional.
It has been heartening watching you and Salman Rushdie, in the wake of life-changing injuries, not resigning to fate but pushing back at it. The human spirit that is evident in your writings is also present in your recoveries, such as they are. The archetype of those professional writers who don't rise to the level of socialite is that of a desk-bound wraith. I still wouldn't want to back one of these wilful individuals into a corner. A.J. Ayer stood up to Mike Tyson in the flesh, defending the honour of Naomi Campbell. I bet Emily Bronte could marshal her bony knuckles into a serviceable uppercut.
During the 90s, I would attend the Reading Festival. I love music, many more magnitudes than I love the written word, even though I can't play a note. From my perspective a performing musician is effectively a sorcerer. I can't equate what comes out of an instrument with whatever they are doing to produce those sounds. A few years ago, a friend on mine died of a massive heart attack on his front doorstep. I inherited the acoustic guitar he was allowed to have towards the end of his prison sentence. There is a chunk missing from the bodywork. I attempt to tune it occasionally, but I never play it.
At the Reading Festival I would work out an itinerary where I would be continuously watching live music. I wouldn't eat. I would barely drink. I have allergies to practically everything in creation and, of course, hay fever. My body is a walking over-reaction. By the end of the three days, I would be in a terrible state, barely able to breathe. I loved the density of the crowds; when everybody starts jumping up and down in unison and suddenly there is no oxygen at eye level. Your lungs burn. Giant voids form spontaneously amidst the scrum of bodies. You brace yourself so as not to fall in, and get ready to haul up anyone who does lose their footing and go down.
I stood at the front of a stage surrounded by besotted young women who had assembled to watch Jeff Buckley. He was extraordinarily good looking, like something chiselled out of marble. I was there to see Morphine who were on after. They were a beatnik jazz trio – a saxophonist, a drummer and home-made two-string bass guitar. Jeff Buckley drowned in the Mississippi in 1997. A couple of years later, Mark Sandman – the lead singer and bass player for Morphine – suffered a heart attack on stage in Italy and died.
At the end of a set by Mogwai – the sonic equivalent of a temple roof being pulled down on our heads – the drummer stood up and hurled one of his sticks into crowd. Everyone around me dived down to retrieve it. I regarded myself above such things and remained standing. A second later the other drumstick came spinning out of the darkness and hit me squarely in the mouth. At the moment of contact I locked eyes with a member of the stage security team, who visibly flinched. I ran my tongue along my teeth to make sure they were all still there, spat out a globule of blood and flesh and went on my way. The entire lower part of my face swelled up. My right cheek felt like a rotten orange that was about to collapse in on itself.
I felt a sense of purpose and belonging at music festivals. At literary events I feel adrift; a stranger in a strange land. I don't know how to talk about books. My ignorance and the limitations in my comprehension are too close to the surface to conceal. I sometimes feel like I am holding back the conversation.
Reading is something that I do in private. I consider it a solitary pursuit that is both solipsistic, while also allowing the possibility to study the human condition from a distance. Like one of the angels in Wings of Desire, you observe life but take no part in it. I have just finished 'Everybody Loves Our Town' – Mark Yarm's oral history of Grunge, which is by turns hilarious and incredibly sad, given the talent that was lost to hard drugs, suicide and murder. This evening, or maybe tomorrow, I will begin The Levant Trilogy by Olivia Manning.
My attempts at writing are a private thing too. I am trying to work out what I think about things. It's transformative – autobiography beaten out of shape, buried under so many layers that you would never know the inspiration, nor would I want anyone to know.
If there is ever a literary festival for morons, where you can play 'pin the tale on the Brothers Grimm', then I'll go to that.